Your Home All Day

I became a stay at home mom when my special needs son was 15. My husband, then boyfriend, said if i needed help with bills and such he would help me. So against my fears I did it. And for the most part it turned out to be a good decision. Fear is a big factor in everything i do. Fear of the unknown, Fear of what happened in the past, lots and lots of fear. My big girl panties are so far up i gave myself a wedgie. Now that i'm home all day(my husbands words),it seems i do not keep myself busy. I just sit on the couch watching soaps and eating bon bon's. Whatever they are. Nope if i go somewhere and someone sits with my grandmother and runs the sweeper or does the dishes that's the only time it gets done. My husband does the cooking for 5 people all the time because he chooses to do it once or twice a week when hes off. I have all the time in the world because "i'm home all day". I do take care of my grandmother who has macular degeneration and age related dementia. I do take care of an 18 year old boy with down syndrome. I do go gray with a 10 year old that thinks hes 16 when it comes to girls. There's also everyone's bank accounts, the boys each have their own accounts to that i manage. Everyone has medications that i alone manage and doctors appointments. So did i let the supper dishes go til tomorrow? yes. Does that mean i do not do anything? Hell No! Again fear. I do not want to be alone,,,again. My husband is very good to me even if he is blind to the goings on of a working home. A working home is a more accurate description of a house wife. We know all the things that go with a working farm, a successful business excetera. A working home is no less busy. In conclusion do not nit pic the wife of a working home. She knows how to put a monkey wrench in the cog wheels too. Fear the multi-tasker. imagine the fear that the outside worker will get sick and life will change. The fear that's put aside to take the kids by themselves to an event. The Lord said "fear not for i am with you" , go with her to church because that is where fear is put aside and she can be herself.